One-shot by @Speakwithme027
“Hey, baby! Come here. Say hi!” A smiling Julie appeared on the screen “Say hi to them Elmo! Please, baby?” She keeps on tugging Elmo’s arms to make him face the camera but his gaze remained on his phone.
“Not now baby, I’m playing.”
Julie pouted. “But baby, please?” She got up on her seat and sat on his lap “Please?” Then she kissed him fully on his lips and giggled.
Elmo sighed. He tossed his phone beside him while staring at his girl. “Promise me na hindi mo ito i-uupload sa insta.”
Julie rained kisses on his cheeks and nodded. “Nope, promise.” Then she giggled again.
Elmo took her cellphone from her “This is the girl that I’m crazy in love with,” he focused Julie’s face in the camera “The only girl that I’m willing to fall in love over and over again. Di ako magsasawang sabihin sa kanya na mahal ko sya. She’s my world. She makes me happy even tho she always tries to make me eat dark chocolates. God, I hate that thing.” Julie smiled at the cam “I love it when she makes me agree to disagree. And ——-“ He didn’t get the chance to finish his sentence when Julie grabbed his neck and smashed her lips against his.
“Enough with the talking.” Julie said between their kisses
Then the video stopped.
That’s the thing about love. You fall in love and when the love fades, shit just got real. Do you ever think why it’s so unfair when you do one wrong thing, then all the good ones just came crashing down together with it? Yeah, all your efforts got wasted and that’s what happened to me. To us.
“Elmo? Your oishi shoot will be ——-“ The door suddenly burst open and my mom came in. She saw me holding a bottle of vodka, head’s down, sitting in front of my TV “ Oh, son.” She walked beside me and that’s it.
I cried again. Like a lost child in his mother’s arms.
“Why does it hurt so much, Mom?” I looked up, not bothering to wipe my tears “Why?”
My mom wiped my tears and her lips formed a sad smile. “That’s because you fell in love, Elmo. Be glad that you feel pain, which means you loved her truly. You gave her your world without hesitations. Let that pain remind you that hearts can heal.”
I didn’t say a word. I just cried my heart out because I know, the moment I step out of this room, I have to pretend that I’m happy. I have to pretend that there’s nothing wrong with me. I have to put up a façade that I’m contented without her. I have to let them see the Elmo that is strong. I know surely, it’s all a lie. A big fat lie.
“Sa tingin mo ba, ginusto ko to, Julie?” He ran a hand on his hair “Yan ang hirap sayo eh! Isang pagkakamali ko lang, itatapon mo na ang lahat ng pinagsamahan natin!” The anger in his eyes didn’t hide all the guilt that he’s trying so hard not to show.
“At bakit, sa tingin mo, madali lang desisyon kong ito, ha, Elmo?!” I shouted. “Ayoko na Elmo. Ayoko nang masaktan.”
His features softened as he reached out, wiping the tears that I didn’t notice.
“I’m sorry.” Was all he said.
“You said that you’ll never hurt me, Elmo. You promised that you’ll take care of me.” I whispered while shaking because of all the anger and hurt.
He slowly wrapped his arms around me “That’s why I’m telling you all of this, baby.”
I pushed him forcefully away from me “Are you really planning to tell me all of this, Elmo? Kung hindi ko ba nakita sa TV na may kahalikan kang ibang babae, sasabihin mo ba?” I pointed his chest “Hindi, Elmo! Hindi!”
He just stood there dumbfounded because he knows that I’m right. We just stood there for a while until I cannot take it anymore. I walked out of the dressing room, eyes drenched in tears, with an aching heart.
What will happen if love can no longer be felt? What if that love was replaced by anger, betrayal and hurt? Is it still love? How can I unlove someone if my heart keeps on screaming his name, if all our memories together keep on playing inside my head like a movie, if his kisses still linger on my skin, how?
“Girl, ano ba? Make up ako ng make up dito tas iyak ka naman ng iyak dyan.”
Chiki’s high pitched voice snapped me out of my delirium
“I’m sorry, Chiki.” I said, whipping my tears away.
Chiki’s hands stopped mine “Ako na girl. Malapit ng magsimula ang show. Kailangan nating madaliin ito.”
I just smiled at her and took my phone out of my hand bag. No message from him. It seems so easy for him to let me go.
“Julie, opening na.” I heard mama called me so I stood up and tried to put up a smile
It’s time for the show.
That satisfying feeling when you lock your gaze into the person who means the whole damn world to you. That consuming feeling when you see her staring back at you. It made me feel less… stupid.
“Moe, opening na! Lika na!” Kris pushed me outside the dressing room while laughing.
I laughed too because of his cheerfulness but my laughter died when I look up. I saw her. She’s staring at me with those sad brown eyes. But when she noticed me staring back at her, she immediately turns at her heels. I quickly followed her and stopped her from her tracks.
“Julie, we need to talk.”
She looked up at me, holding my gaze “There’s nothing here to be talked about.”
I took her hands in mine “Please, Julie. I promise you, this will be the last time I’m bothering you about this.”
She took a step back, eyes widening. She looked so shock. I surprised myself by saying that too. But I’m desperate.
“First, I want to say sorry.” I paused, thinking for the right words to say “I’m so drunk at that time and I didn’t have the force to push her away. I’m sorry that I hurt you. I know I promised not to hurt you but I’m so dumb making that promise. I tried to spellbind you to a world of fantasy when I already know that this is the reality.” I tried to search something in her eyes but she just stood there, frozen.
“I’m so so sorry Julie. I need to save our relationship because us is the only thing that keeps me sane. I tried to self-destruct but as I sat in front of my TV last night while watching our video tapes, I thought that instead of sitting there drowning all my sorrows with a bottle of vodka, why don’t I get out there and talk to you. So here I am, Julie. Please be mine again.”
“Elmo, I- i———“ Julie didn’t got the chance to finish her words. The PA behind her shouted our names.
She just smiled and took my hand as she leads me to our world; the stage, the crowd and the cameras.
“Love is beyond measure. It can be felt but it is beyond what our feelings can feel. And love is more than an affection; it is an affection, but it is more than that. Love is always love even though you’ve felt it or not, for its existence isn’t dependable upon our feelings. Don’t love because you think that is necessary or that would make things okay, love because you know it is there. It’s like going to school. Don’t go to school just to pass your exams, go to school for learning. There’s no undoing to love because if it fades, then it’s not love at all.”
July 27, 2014
Ayoko mag-tumblr. Gagawa pa ba ako? Hindi naman ako writer. Hindi rin naman ako nagpapakilala.
Gusto ko lang i-share yung naramdaman ko kahapon. Sa PhilPop 2014. Mga bandang 8 to 9pm na. Kung sabihin niyong KKTP ito, bahala kayo. Susubukan ko namang mailatag ng maayos ang mga arguments ko bago ko ibigay ang mga opinyon ko.
This be entitled as “My First JE Experience”
I’ll give you my brief history. I became infected by this fandom only last October 2013. To quote a veteran, “Papunta ka pa lang, pauwi na kami.” Yes. Our beloved LT is already at its scheduled rotational brownout by that time. But why only then? I was actually in deep sleep underground from 2010 to September 2013.
The first time I saw Julie as my idol was during her sophomore album launch at SM Skydome last June 21. The first time I saw Elmo as my idol was on Yahoo! Awards 2014 last July 18. They’re not together by then, of course. They performed well and entertained their respective audience. They are wonderful and awesome on their lone paths.
But last night was the night I first saw them together in an event, as their fan to the very least. I then realized the thing they called “magic” between the two of them. I thought it was the one I saw and felt on endless replays on their movie and their youtube videos. Hindi pala. It was way way way more than that. Malamig sa Meralco Theater, sobra. Hindi ko alam nun kung nanginginig ako sa sobrang ginaw o sa sobrang saya o sa sobrang kilig. ‘Twas only when we went out, I realized it’s all because of JE. Proof?
- Sumasabay si Julie sa Qrush on You, moving her head to the beat. Check Mich’s video [kung i-uupload niya]
- Si JA lang, amongst all the judges, ang walang headphones na ginamit during Qrush on You performance. Pero pagdating sa iba, gumamit siya.
- Bukod sa Awit Mo’y Nandito Pa [alam naman nating mahilig silang dalawa sa bata, at talagang magaling naman talaga, tumayo nga si JA after the song], sa perf lang ni EM todo palakpak si JA
- Sobrang stiff ni Elmo before prod. Nakita ko siyang i-perform ang same number sa Yahoo! Awards pero iba talaga ngayon.
- Awkward nga lang bago magstart ang prod. Sobrang awkward, hindi nila alam kung saan sila ppwesto malayo lang sa isa’t isa. Nasa likod lang nila kami.
- Pero GV yung pagiging game nila sa picture taking. KV pala. :D
- Yung automatic na paghawak ni Elmo sa bewang ni Julie to have that picture done
- Yung pagtakbo ni Elmo na kunyari nagmamadali after the picture taking, tatambay lang pala sa judges’ table. Kinilig ang loko.
- Yung ‘pagka-owl ng ulo ni Julie na umikot ng 360 degrees nung hinanap ni Ogie si Elmo
- Nabanggit si Ellen Degeneres. Si JA? Ayun tingin kay Ogie pagkasabi nun. Ngiting wagas, memories… memories… YKWIM
- Yung totoo, bakit ang bilis nilang nawala agad after the show?
Sheeep. Ayoko na. Pahingi na ng gamot dito. Ang sakit kaya sa panga na nakangiti ka from the start ng program hanggang ngayong tinatype ko ito ngayong past 3 am. Hindi naman ako katulad ni ano, yung mascot ng Yahoo! Kayo talaga. :P
Also, ‘yong picture. This is to save my friend from unfair criticisms. She’s the one who (1) made efforts to get and win tickets for the show, (2) had the courage and guts ask JE to have their picture together since time immemorial (3) updated you online with what’s happening behind the scenes and (4) became your official photographer for that night. We’ll never be sorry kung ganon ang lumabas. Tatlo lang kaming nandon sa vicinity. Ako, nagvvideo. Si ate na random stranger na mejo na-harass ni Mich na ipasa sa kanya yung picture niya ng JE na kinuha gamit ang phone niya. Si Mich, well, you know what she did. Kahit sinong nasa katayuan namin mawawala sa katinuan ng makitang nagstrike for a pose yung dalawa. Nawala din sa katinuan ang camera, pati yung flash. Okay? Okay.
I am a quiet one. I am not the type that will shout your name against the crowd noise. I am a shy type. I cannot even stand the idea of being with any [or both] of you around my perimeter. It’s just that there’s so much happiness in my heart right now, I cannot control my emotions anymore. I have to share this. Nilalagnat na nga ako oh, plus body pain. Feeling ko trangkaso na ‘to later.
Just a wish. Sana makarating sa inyo ‘to, o kahit isa man lang sa inyo:
No’ng split seconds na nakausap ka namin ni Mich, I mouthed the words “Thank you” with two thumbs up. You may no longer remember that, but when you smiled and nodded, it made my very happy night into heaven. That “Thank you” is more than what you could ever imagine. That “Thank you” is more than you agreeing to have that illusive picture with Elmo once again. That “Thank you” meant thank you for being you and staying the humblest, most appreciative, and most accomodating artist I know. Thank you for being my idol. Thank you for being the MyJaps.
Bigla ka namang nawala. Alam mo bang ang tagal ka naming hinintay sa lobby ni Mich? 2 hours ‘yun uy. We’re both but sittting, standing and roaming around plus I am still suffering from my right ankle and calf sprain I obtained months ago. Pero totoo pala yung sinasabi ng mga faneys ano? Makita ka lang na bumawi ng kahit kaunti lang kay Julie o sa fans, burado na agad yung tampo (o minsan, galit) dahil sa mga kalokohan mo. Nakakawala ka rin ng wisyo eh, alam mo yun? You could always show that unique kind of love to your fans. Kaya ka pala “SuperElmo.” If I’ll see you again and will have a chance to say something to you, that’ll be “Thank you for being the SuperElmo.”
THANK YOU FOR BEING JULIELMO.
Inspired by you,
Here’s the story
I was seated 2 rows away from Julie.
Nagulat ako when Elmo went to the judges table after his performance. Ayun pala may spiel. At first it was only Jasmine, Tim, JayR and Elmo. After ilang mins, Julie went to their side. OMG kasali pala sya sa spiel. Dito na nawala lahat ng senses ko. I waited until matapos yung spiel. I told Ate @JE_Undergorund na di kami pwede umuwi ng walang JE picture. So when the spiel ended, walang hiya-hiya tumayo ako and approched Julie.
Mich: Julie picture.
Julie: Sure, sure.
Mich: No, with Elmo sana.
Julie: (naghesitate sya) You ask him.
Mich: (so I called Elmo) Moe, can I take a picture of you with Julie?
Elmo: (moved closer but Jasmine moved too, so naging 3 muna sila. They were supposed to go but I stopped them and asked for a JE picture)
AND THEN VOILA, CHENEN!
Julie Anne San Jose and Elmo Magalona
Started as no body in the industry
but was met together by destiny.
The love from their fans is like a pyramid,
They’ll stand together till the very end.
They were separated recently
to improve their careers individually
But we faneys want to see them together
performing like they were never set asunder.
We hope Yahoo can give us a chance
To prove that we are the best FANS
So please grant our request
To see them on the stage and represent!
We Want to see JULIELMO perform on Yahoo Celebrity Awards :))
Siguro naman deserve nila ang magperform dahil last year sila ang nanalo na Performer of the year . Right ? And please yahoo. We miss the “Kilig”. The blending of their voice. We miss seeing the “True Chemistry” because of their network :( Please make this happen. Mahal na mahal po namin sila. Kahit na magkahiwalay sila . nagte-trend pa din. Kahit na madaming hadlang sa kanila marami pa ring hindi bumibitaw sa kanila. Sana po magperform sila Together :)
ELMO + JULIE = RAP + RHYTHM
There’s no doubt that the CHEMISTRY of these two on stage is exceptional. I’m in awe whenever they perform together on stage. Julie together with Elmo on stage gives me a magical feeling that I can’t even explain.
I’ve been a fan for years and up until now they…